Siewyi is reflecting on what has been going on for 2009..
her maid,siti, just left her on 30dec09
can't sent her to airport, coz working..
also gald that she is working so that she won't cry in front of siti..
kept herself busy for the whole day,30dec
new helper come, got a bit trouble communicating..
being a prefect EXCO member
things were not going as smoothly as she thought..
disappointed with some of them..
challenging & fruitful
but she had learn lots of things on the journey..
made someone angry, make someone sad, spoiled his mood..
she is sry..thankful and grateful of him..
pressure..emotional..
friends Vs perfects, sacrifices
camp planned, then cancel..
workshop planned but could carry out due to H1N1
what has she do for e prefects??
she dun noe.. seems she do a lot..but think of it..does it benefit them??
some of the things she face while being as a EXCO..
it happens at e real world too..
not juz within e board..
but this challenge is not solve..
so how to solve this tricky problem??
think can't be slove..
maybe "teach" and taught since "young"..
Her heart..
concern your friend in the right way..
sometimes ppl need to be alone when they felt vexed or sad..
give them some space to breath..
sometimes ppl take her for granted..
she felt sad and worried..
but at the same time happy..
she had no idea why is that so..
she knew that she should give them a seed to grow..
not give the whole tree to them..
but she still did it..
she had regrets in her secondary life..
her CCA..
GB..
a CCA-UG she thought that she won't join in my whole life..
thought that it is a waste of time..
no point joining it..
but fate and it's her choice that she went to GB..
she start of with a mindset of go for the sake of going...
soon her seniors change her mindset..
she looked forward to every meeting as she knew that it will be fun..
she had learn smth that she never knew..
WS asked her when she received e position..
how will her sister see you as..
how will her friends see and treat her..
these Q never came across her mind..
but at that moment she didn't think much..
she is a happy go lucky person..
sry that she didn't lead as well as WS badge..
but hoped that your have fun
coz she hoped that your come for e fun..
ya..u might have noticed that e discipline was not as strict as WS badge..
coz she dun one your to feel as pressure coming for GB..
this yr..GB is like very short..
felt a bit funny when didn't go for GB anymore..
in sch a bit rare to see the girls due to EXAMS..
also glad that she had join UG..
coz she have a chance to plan a UG camp with e rest of e CCA leaders..
thanks a sch, teachers and principal for giving us a chance to challenge our-self..
seriously..not easy..but fun ;D
her studies
has she give her best shot for O's??
she start panicking at the last min..
will always remember the last 2 weeks be4 O's..
chong-ing..digging up her notes..
practicing..doing..
life of colour pens, high lighter and notes..
skipped sch a few times beginning of e yr..
late for e very 1st time thru out the 5 yrs..
she could even made a mistake abt e day for SS and history papers
Will all her last min work pay off??
thought of retaking sec 5 in yr 2010..
she will confirm work very hard..
not more prefects stuff..
but continue going GB..
GB and studies..
but it take time and courage to do everything all over again..
is she prepared?? is she ready??
can she do it?? will she do it??
support?? scold?? renew?? history repeats??
is she ready to face it??
all she can do now is wait for results..
11-13 dec 09
meanwhile she will be working at Parkway True Fitness as admin(Data entry)..
Do you think her journey ends here??
thinking again..
this is jus e beginning of her life..
