my purpose??

Today DM tok to sec4NA steam..mean my class..
he said lot of stuff within that 5 mins..
WE ALL WILL GO SEC5!!
we will work hard one!!
WE wish to be together as a class..(maybe a few will disagree wif me)

I must work hard..
I will pass all my subjects!!
I will do my best..
I won't give up any hope..
Even the hope is juz as small as a gain of rice
I will be promote to sec 5..
I will do well for my N'level..

Sometimes..
I felt i am really very extra in the class..
I can't be among the class..
Sometimes..
I felt be a prefect is tough for me..
Coz when i see my class kana scolded i felt very bad..
Scolded for being noisy,naughty..
Sometimes..
I felt i am an use-less prefect..
I am juz spoiling the prefect reputation..
Sometimes..
I wish that some of my classmates can understand me..
For example today..
sec1-3 have their CT..
coz my class had no teacher..
Then whole class very noisy..
i was juz telling them to lower down their volume..
Yet..i can felt they hate me a lot..
they sure are thinking--
Aiya..do ur stuff la..go away..prefect so what??
Sometimes..
i think should i be helping the class so much..
After doing all the work, who will appreciated it??
NO ONE!!
i clean the class..next day it will be dirty again..
I deco the noticeboard, yet all the colour paper were torn out..
to be thrown around..at people..
After i spent hours deco-ing myself..this is how they "appreciated" what i did for the class...
how i wish they can appreciated it..
I felt even when i am gone one day..
I will won't be remember..
the class won't be a difference without me..
coz i am juz a care-li-fair
Sometimes..
I felt i need a friend to tok to..
yet i can't find some1..
1 by 1 had left me..
i have friends yet they are hi-bye friends..
Sometimes..
I felt so vexed that i wished i won't come to this world..
Coming to tis world..
I seem to coz trouble then helping..

But everyone is born to this world for a purpose..
What is my purpose??

Going to ubin soon..2 more days..
looking forward..