"Who I Am Hates Who I've Been"

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...

'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus]
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

[Chorus]
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus x2]
[Chorus]

Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I've been
'cause who I've been only ever made me...

So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

Jia you!! Jia you!! Dun give up!! Dun give up!!

Jia you!! Jia you!! Dun give up!! Dun give up!!

Yesterday I was feeling to just give up for my English..
Haha..your will be able to see how poor is my english when your read through my blog..
Then I was seriously wanting to just give up..
But somethings kept my awake..
and ms lim will be always there to encourage me and talk to me..
most (should be all) teachers felt that my eng will be worst then my sis..
When I looked up to the big screen in fornt of the hall..
“ ‘ I am gifted’ booster workshop tis Thursday..5A & 5B at library ”
Gosh at tat time then I told myself stop day dreaming
Lots of scene, words just appeared on my mind..
What ben (bong), amin & huiling said..

What matters is you take actions!!

Opinions are like not always true!!
others ppl opinions are like mukpies
don't bother abt them!!
don't bother!!

Eyes of Eagles!! dare to fall!! dare to fly!! dare to achive!!

5A & 5B GOALS
100% PASSES FOR O'LEVEL!!
we want to be proud of it!!
we want to show others that sec 5's also can do it!!

Choing for math..
The only subject I can score very well other then my art..
and i knew that today i made a lot of careless mistakes!!
1 more paper to go!! paper 2 here i come!!

Don’t lose hope!! Don’t lose hope!!
There’s no failure, only learning experience!!!
Must have courage in everything you do!!
face all the music in front of you..
face all the comments in front of you
face all the problems you face(dun bother if is not important)
face all criticizing others say
i knew that you will be a better person after that

day before perlims 1A

Let bygones be bygones. Right now
Focus on the future, instead.
I dun noe what and how I feel now..
Quite vexed..
Vexed about??
I had no idea..
I seems to be very angry in myself..
人生太多东西烦了
very tired le..
no point angry,.only harming myself..

but anyway I got 23/40 for my eng oral
I am quite worried abt my oral at 1St..
I dun know what to say when I reach the conversation
1st question: how often do u go to salon (about hair style)
oh no..haha..those who are close to me will know the ans..

2nd: how do you feel abt installing CCTV in the public??
YES!! When I heard this question I felt very relief …
I thought the 2nd question will be abt impression..
Haha..i just answered quite naturally..
Actually I was thinking and saying at the same time..
I said that I agreed that CCTV is there to firstly for our safety as well as is good to help police find out the suspect, eg theft ..However, installing in shops are not very well-like.. why? because this might let the employees felt that the employer don’t trust them, watching every move they are moving, no freedom at all..the employees will feel angry too..they might be think that why the employer employs them if they dun trust them?

anyway, tmr is start for the sec4/5 perlims papers
and is the mid-yr for sec1-3's
Good luck and all the best to everyone!!

challenges are what make life interesting;
overcoming them is what makes life meaningful

hair cut

RECHARGED!!!!

don't think abt it anymore..
sort of avoiding the problem ba..haha
anyway i got hair cut yesterday..
okay..but dun expect too see much changes..
coz my hair is still lonnng..
their service is very good..
if u want to get a haircut..
my intro tis shop- HAIR inn at the yewtee point..
is very good..
this is frm japan one..
coz most of their product are frm Japan
i dun noe how to explain
you should go and try it urself
i remember their motto
(Together:A passion for hair)
they looked very zuan ye
look like they have lots of experience..
i am sure is proud to work in that salon..

chong like mad next week!!

heart broken

Today not feeling well..
I ran thru and for to the toilet…
Wonder I ate yesterday..or the day before..
No matter wat..
I knew that I will try not to buy
Bubble tea frm the sweet talk frm limbang le..
Their attitude was horrible..
And the place is very dirty..
Ants..files..and if u get to see the wall below the sink
Gosh..very dirty..

Next fri is e start of prelim 1A..
Ok-ay..time is really running out..
Still have a lot to rush for my math!!

pls leave me alone for a while
for a few min..
for a few sec..
lot’s of things had happened lately..
I need time to get over it..
I need time to heal..
After wat u did..
U still want us to call you..
NO WAY!!
You had create enough trouble..
You even broke her heart..
U should be the one leaving not her..

sl

today service-learning..
gosh they came very early..
9am start..
then they all came at ard 8.15am..
we had not prepare yet!!
quite a lot of mis-communication..
thanks for waiting for us to prepare ourselves.. =)
they seems to have lots of fun..
they ran here and there..
very worried..
scare they fall down..
haha..end up only one person injured..
and is quite a small one..so okay ba..haha..
thx SJAB for lending us the 1st aid kit..

last gb meeting didn't manage to go..
hahaha..seems that they had a lot of fun playing..
saw ms lee taught them some songs..
i miss Gb..

today's didn't manage to paint the Mural painting..
coz the paints were inside the gernal office..
then the office was locked..
and none of the teachers have the key..
haha..ard 1 week to do the wall..
not easy..
but is going to be complete soon!!
going to rush on mon..
haha..sense of sanctification..

ai yi ke ren hen xin ku..

going for night study.. =D

2 weeks to prelims..

2 more weeks to prelims 1A..
i really must stop day dreaming..
i feel very tired when i reach home..

juz scold me..
i won't talk back..
u had suffered a lot..
i will juz take in ur words..
yea, waste time painting..
u want me to focus on studies..
painting helps me relax..
and forget my troubles temporary..
it has been mths seen i paint..
glad to have the chance to paint...

hopefully the matter is going to be over soon..
mentor and understudy is forever one..
okay at least thur out us prefect journey..
is tis ur mentor taught u??
wat and where the info gone??
juz hope that ur will wake up soon..
test = no need to do duty..
wat is tis..
some sec 4's doing O level still going duty..
what is tis!!

but heard next wk night study starting..
YES!! finally..it's starting..
i am sure going for that!!
kk..see you tmr =)
good luck to those that will be running!!
tmr GB will be selling drinks..
pls support us!!

is enough to see ur smile

motivation

come on siewyi..
this is not ur best shot..
where's ur motivation??
u promise yourself u will work hard..
then now??
come on dun slack..
no time to slack le!!
2 mth to chinese o'level!!

u want to enjoy urself after O's??
u really want to play??
and dun bother abt O's when is over??
come on..grad nite is at 5 star hotel..
Intercontinental Hotel..
u can enjoy yourself after that!!
and most of the class will be going!! =)

keep on going!!
dun stop!!
dun give up!!
prove to others tat sec 5 also can do it!!

wat ever u scold..pls open up ur eyes..
sec 5 is the BEST!!!

coming together is a begining,
keeping together is a process,
WORKING TOGETHER IS A SUCCESS!!